change was just a call away..

what was i thinking? and what was i doing? the most famous questions that crosses an individual when you past this one crazy stage of trying to get something that is constantly runnig away from you.. and for no apparent reason but their selfishness..
and their own cooked up doubts only because their thoughts were being fed by guilt.. guilty conscious.. u may call it..

well been there done that.. i could only try this much and go on for so long.. iam done. talked to the two most beautiful souls today.. and i thought to myself.. there is someone who's heart is beating for me.. eyes are searching for me.. hands waiting to hold me and caress me.. someone who hasnt stopped thinking about me even for a second.. not even in their dreams..was all this love not enough where was the need to go on searching for more.. love doesnt mean to be selfless to the outer world..so its best to value what we have and not be chasing pavements..

i must have been very immature when i was around them to understand their emotions.. not like i denied it but i couldnt see what i can see today after 2years of separation and sacrifice..this love that is never going away and has never asked me to prove myself or my love for them..

and what touched my heart was their faith and hope in me..i felt it stronger than ever..that i cant be doing something to let them down this trust in me.. when i was younger.. people talked big.. they said i would do whatever i wanted and i would make it big.. true that.. but come to think of it today more than half those things can be a curse.. so its time to do all that i was sent on earth for and for these two unconditional parents.. who have dared to cross all limits to give me a life that most others dream of.. no money and treasure can be of any good if u dont have the heart to put in the right direction.. and they had nothing but the biggest HEART..

mom dad.. your love and dedication is that keeps me going
you are my god
my survival

i owe my life and everything to you
and no words, qoutes, and poems will ever be enough to express what i feel for you
I LOVE YOU. and iam so proud to be your daughter thank you for bringing me into this world :)